8. A Trail Through Thyme

by Davina on October 7, 2009

WayUpChapter Eight: Looking up to Mount Gardner

I hit the trail at noon, climbing uphill for the first 20 minutes. It was deafeningly quiet and I found it a bit disconcerting. The night before I’d asked Wynn if there were any bears on the island. She told me that the odd bear or cougar would swim across and hang out for a short while, before returning to the Mainland.

That wasn’t too comforting for my active imagination. I couldn’t help but think that the one bear or cougar that might happen to be on the island that week, would meet up with me on the mountain.

When I saw a woman and her dog approaching in the distance I was somewhat relieved. Her dog barked when he saw me and I heard her shoosh him. I wanted him to bark though, to scare any bears away.

I was annoyed at myself because my nerves were on edge, preventing me from relaxing and enjoying the hike. I couldn’t seem to get past this fear of mine.

A couple of years ago I went hiking by myself while my boyfriend and I were camping near Sasquatch Park in BC. He was not able to hike because of a bad back and I just HAD to go.

I ended up getting lost and the park manager later told me I had gone way out of bounds. I had been real unsettled when I saw fresh bear droppings beside the trail on my first way through, and didn’t take kindly to having to go back the way I’d come. Not one bit.

I had been hiking around Deer Lake and missed the turnoff to come back around the other side of the lake. The side I might add, as I learned that evening, where there had been the most bear and cougar sightings. Guess it was best I did miss the turnoff.

The dog didn’t want to leave my side. He planted himself beside me and stared at his owner as if to say, “You go on home now. I’m gonna go walking with this new girl.” I would have loved that.

He reminded me of the time my mother bought a dog for my sisters and I. This dog took a liking to me and would follow me everywhere. She didn’t want a thing to do with my sisters. Mom eventually bought two more dogs, one for each sister. Now I was embarrassed as this woman’s dog wouldn’t leave my side and I had to coax him to leave with her.

She told me it was 20 minutes past the bridge to the first lookout and then warned me about the bridge. Apparently it was difficult to cross, but if I held on to the cedars on the right side I’d be fine.

“Oh crap,” I thought to myself, imagining the worst. I had little trouble crossing though. I first attempted to go around but the rocks in the riverbed were too slippery so I ended up crossing just as she’d recommended; by holding on to the cedar logs on the right side.

Bridge

Twenty minutes later and drenched in sweat, I rested at the first level ground since I’d begun the hike. I sipped some water and looked back at where I’d come from, feeling pretty satisfied with myself. But my nerves were still on edge and all senses were listening…

Disappointment was waiting for me at the first lookout as the view was blocked by an overgrowth of trees. Dense underbrush prevented me from moving past them, and at the second lookout it was the same situation. I was peeved. Not only was I missing out on the view, but I had wanted to take pictures for my blogging buddies.

Tall FungusThe path levelled off after a while and I guessed I had reached the topmost part of the mountain. Every so often I’d stop to look at the map (futile, I know), to make sure I was headed the right way. I was determined to connect with the Killarney Lake trail.

After more than an hour into the hike I approached the top of a steep hill that looked like an old dried up river bed. I’m guessing it was about 50 yards down at a 40-degree angle. There were plenty of rocks jutting out that would give me something to grab onto.

The rocks were slippery from yesterday’s rain and I fell three times. The first time my camera banged against a rock and I stopped to put it in my backpack. I scraped my wrist on a rock another time.

I had to crouch real low to the ground to prevent myself from falling again. Perhaps climbing up wasn’t all that bad after all – going down was sure difficult. I finally reached the bottom and stood up, glad to be on level ground again. I looked around. There was no path. I was surrounded by thick ferns.

About 25 yards to my right it looked like the path started up again, so I began crashing through the forest and climbing over fallen logs, all the while watching for spiders in their webs, but having great fun too. I was in my glory as I pushed forward.

After five minutes there was still no path to be found. I turned to look back the way I’d come and couldn’t see the path I’d just left.

The forest appeared to grow larger at that very moment and everything seemed father away than I remembered. I felt like I was being watched. Trees towered above me mockingly, making me feel very small and incredibly vulnerable. I stood still, listened and prayed I wouldn’t hear any rustling in the bushes.

Stay tuned for the rest of the story to come on Sunday.

Have you ever been lost or found yourself in a similar situation? How prepared would you be? What would be in your backpack? :-)

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{ 20 comments }

1 Betsy Wuebker 10.07.09 at 7:12 pm

Hi Davina – Oh yes, I’ve felt the big fear – once in Alaska where I was convinced we were going to encounter a bear and I would be its lunch, and another time along the Gunflint Trail where we were camped. We’d awakened to the howling of a wolf pack and I was sure we were being observed on our walkabout later that day. Very unnerving. I still to this day don’t know if there was any justification for my feelings in either situation. Great writing!
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2 Robin 10.07.09 at 11:50 pm

Well Davina – I wouldn’t be going there if there could be bears or cougars! I haven’t ever got lost by myself in the bush, I don’t think – when I’ve been walking by myself there have been clear tracks.
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3 janice 10.08.09 at 10:46 am

I’d have a mobile phone, and you wouldn’t find me hiking anywhere without good reception, satnav, a map and a compass! My handbag contains a mini solar torch, a normal mini torch and a whistle, all on my keyring, a battery operated phone charger, spare batteries for it, kids’ sunscreen, a mini pocket knife, an umbrella and two spare fold up shopping bags. Goodness knows what I’d pack for a lone hike! I made a strange discovery as I read this; I’d be more scared of a lone guy walking with a dog than I would at the thought of bears and cougars.
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4 Jannie Funster 10.08.09 at 11:06 am

In my backpack would be a GPS locator, a compass, a rain poncho, a flare gun, 3 beers and 6 donuts.
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5 Jannie Funster 10.08.09 at 11:08 am

But seriously, I got lost one night snowmobiling by myself after dark and I was only about a mile from my parents’ farm. Still don’ t remember how I got myself home after circling and circling, but I was sure glad when I finally saw the lights of the shore road.
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6 Tess The Bold Life 10.08.09 at 6:51 pm

OH my Davina we better figure this out before our Grand Canyon trip! I absoluelty love what Funster wants in her bag. But my pure friend Julie will have no part of donuts and beer!

I have been lost. It’s crazy how my mind works and it never fails I second guess myself. When I first began running in my 20’s I was so slow I’d be the last runner in the race and I’d miss a cone or something and sure enough I’d be in a panic and have to run an extra mile!

Then when I moved to AZ I used to get lost all the time. It drove me crazy. Then I bought a GPS and so many roads and streets were brand new in my area that the GPS was worthless. Then I’d get paranoid and take the GPS and a map from mapquest printed out when I went to Phoenix (5th largest city in US). And of course they’d disagree so that would confuse me. Then I’d panic and call my husband and didn’t understand his directions so I’d get mad at him and hang up.

At this point are you sure you still want to go hiking with me??? Anyway I’m LOL at myself for telling on my self. True Story.

So do you see why I need those beers and donuts?!?

Now I rarely get lost and if I do I don’t panic anymore. All anxiety is gone and after 2 years I feel like I’m home!
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7 Davina 10.08.09 at 8:29 pm

Hi Betsy.
Thanks :-) “The Big Fear” — yes! I’ve heard the howling of wolves — it’s pretty eerie — goes right through you and makes the hairs on your arms stand up. It would be pretty unnerving to hear it when you weren’t safe inside. Gives me the shivers just thinking of it.

Hi Robin.
I know. I’m nuts that way. It’s just too tempting to pass up… despite the fear — can’t help myself.

Hi Janice.
You know you’ve made a good point about the lone guy on the trail. I’d never thought of that… and glad I hadn’t :-) You’ve got an excellent list prepared. I even had my toothbrush packed — I hate fuzzy teeth — ha, ha.

Hi Jannie.
You’re a hoot! Tee hee. Isn’t that a relief? To finally see home when you’re lost. That’s how I felt that time I was camping. I soooo glad to see the campsite and my boyfriend lounging on his chair.

Hi Tess.
You’re right. It IS crazy how the minds works. Mine got all worked up that’s for sure. Lol, you hung up on your husband because you didn’t understand his instructions… I’m laughing so hard right now. You were flustered… that makes perfect sense. I’m still wanting to hike with you and Julie… yes please!

8 Lori Hoeck 10.09.09 at 9:16 am

The panic of being lost is the worst enemy hiker. I felt it rise a few times when I was first hiking in Colorado and lost a trail. Nice thing is, the mountains are really huge landscape markers, so it’s harder to get lost.

I’m with Janice, it’s the two-legged critters I’d be more wary of than the four-legged ones. Animals have patterns of behavior and hunting you can learn; humans are a lot trickier.

Isn’t the deafening sound of silence the oddest experience?
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9 vered | blogger for hire 10.09.09 at 11:26 am

I never hiked by myself! You are a brave woman, Davina.
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10 patricia 10.09.09 at 11:58 am

I am always lost…so I write to steer and get my bearings and navigate again.

My back pack is full of things I perceive is necessary…I often leave it at home.

loving your story….and I think I figured out you got home safe and sound!
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11 Julie 10.09.09 at 4:38 pm

My girlfriend and I ALWAYS get lost on our hikes. It’s fun. Really! We just sort of look at each other, grin, and then keep going on dead reckoning. The last time was a teensy bit hairy because we were on the mountain in November, the sun was behind it and fading fast, it was in the 40s F, and we’d been humping up and down far more ridges than we’d expected. While taking a breather on an old hollowed log filled with dried leaves, looking out over the long slope into “forever,” I mentioned that we did have the option of staying put for the night; that between us, we had enough nibbles and water to stave off starvation; and that if she entered the log at one end and me at the other, we’d be able to play footsie to keep our feet warm. She insisted on trekking on (she didn’t like the thought of things in the leaves) and it all worked out beautifully. We waited a few days to tell our husbands. ;) Funny, for all the times I’ve been in the woods, I’ve never, ever, not once been frightened. My husband refused to hike down a path with me, once, when we saw bear prints. Really, they were old; it hadn’t rained in days and those prints were rock hard. I kept going. I love love love the woods!

Tess, you’re too funny. :) Davina, it’s going to be a blast!
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12 Davina 10.09.09 at 10:35 pm

Hi Lori.
Yeah, that panic sets in and thinking is blown way out of proportion. That’s for sure! Interesting how I was thinking more about the 4-legged predators than the 2-legged. Good thing I’ve been reading your blog Think Like a Blackbelt!

Hi Vered.
I question whether I’m brave… or crazy! :-)

Hi Patricia.
Lol, you leave your well-planned backpack home! We’d make fine hiking partners wouldn’t we?

Hi Julie.
I can visualize you and your friend camped out in that log, lol. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep… too worried about the creepy-crawlies like your friend — ew! I wish I could be as fearless as you when I go hiking… my imagination sure has its way with me. Tisk.

13 Barbara Swafford 10.11.09 at 1:11 am

Hi Davina,

You are a lot more brave than I. I don’t think I would want to go hiking by myself in an unfamiliar area. As I was reading this, my heart was pounding in fear for you.

Fortunately I’ve read your posts out of order, so I know the outcome. :)
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14 Cath Lawson 10.13.09 at 2:39 pm

Hi Davina – I feel bad for mentioning bears when you were going camping last year now. Not living anywhere near bears, I didn’t have a clue – but I’ve been reading up and I now know how to tell the difference between the different types and what to do if I see one.

The thought of seeing one close up still terrifies me though – and I definitely would not want to see a cougar.
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15 Davina 10.13.09 at 11:16 pm

Hi Barbara.
It was scary and THAT kept bugging me because I wanted to just enjoy the hike. Hiking with a partner would be ideal, but a person has gotta do what they gotta do sometimes. Hey, you cheated! :-)

Hi Cath.
Oh don’t worry… I would have been worried about the bears anyway :-) Some fears run deep, for whatever reason. So many people tell me I “should” be more afraid of cougars than bears and intellectually, I know that. But that fear of bears has more of a hold on me. Your comment really ties in with that title of your recent post – ha, ha.

16 Dot 10.14.09 at 11:15 am

Sorry, but rather than thinking you’re brave, this repeat of getting lost in an even more dangerous place than the first time has me wondering, why such risky behavior when you know you’re not good with maps? Wasn’t there anyone who could have gone with you or served as a guide? This doesn’t sound like an adventure any more — more like self-destructive or self-sabotaging, putting yourself in harm’s way and not taking good care of yourself.

17 Davina 10.14.09 at 9:05 pm

Hi Dot.
It does sound that way doesn’t it? These are trails that are regularly hiked by visitors to Bowen Island and not considered any more dangerous than walking down a city sidewalk. There wasn’t anyone who could go hiking with me and rather than deny myself something so important to me, I chose to go anyway. There is always a risk, but most of the drama here was all in my head. It is something I will do again, and again and again (hopefully with LESS fear) :-) And hopefully I will not “have” to continue to do this solo. If I do, I will.

18 Sara 10.15.09 at 9:41 am

Davina — I agree with others about hiking by yourself in such a remote area. That took some courage. I was taken by the part about the dog. I imagine he sensed your fear and wanted to stay with you to protect you. Dogs are like that sometimes. At any rate, at least he was friendlier than the other dog!

I can see this walk of yours as a metaphor for life. I would hope that all of us could say what you said while walking in this forest…”I was in my glory as I pushed forward.” I look forward to next part of the adventure:~)
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19 Davina 10.17.09 at 7:10 pm

Hi Sara.
It was pretty neat about that dog. He really planted himself at my side. I felt “protected”. I guess this did take some courage, but again… it was something I wanted so badly, I was willing to take a risk. Yes, he was sure friendlier than that other dog. In that case, I’d sure hoped for a different meeting.

20 Hilary 10.18.09 at 10:40 am

Hi Davina .. sounds like you need Jannie with you .. don’t leave her anywhere .. always have her by your side .. while you’re out hiking!!

Sounds glorious – but hair raising to say the least. That tree is fantastic and the other photos you’ve taken are great too ..

bears and cougars .. not too helpful to have around .. and a vanishing lake – sounds like you should be here with our history and recorded stories ..

I’m off to number 9 .. lovely tale ..
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